Here it is I just survived the weekend of SeaWorld and Disney. It is amazing, especially since it was Memorial Day Weekend. Wow!!! Both parks were full to the max and made life so interesting.
Now comes the heart breaking part of the story. Things went really great at both parks which amazed even me. The kids for as hot as it was and as crowded as it was were very well behaved. I think there was only one or two out bursts that needed to be dealt with.
But out of all of this I find out that Kenzie is so emphatic about living with me. I have an appointment with the lawyer this week to see if I can find a loop hole somewhere that maybe I can get her. It is just so heartbreaking to have a child beg you to live with you. Believe me, I would give anything I could to get custody of them, but sadly, Florida is a state that favors women. So, I will go in Tuesday and hope for the best but plan for the worst. I just don’t care how ugly this battle is about to get as long as Kenzie is happy. I hate to see her so upset and know that there may not be anything I can do to fix it. L
Anyway, I will keep you up to date on the continuing saga. Thanks for listening.

What a day!!!! It has been one of those days where everything just went right!!! It was my last full day of students, so that of course is awesome in itself. Not only that but I received several comments on my useless information, so that makes me happy, too. LOL
Now for some fun stuff, why is it that every time you think you have something fixed, boom, something else goes wrong with it? Case in point, the Trans-Am is back in the shop because the A/C went out. Okay, before everyone starts to ask me if I want some cheese with my wine, let me finish first. You have not and will not survive a summer in Florida without A/C in your car. See it is like the winter to you Northern folk, who run from your house to your cars so that you don’t freeze. Well, we run from our houses to our cars so that we don’t melt.
Anyway, it seems I get one thing fixed and then another goes bad. If it weren’t for the fact that this is the car of my dreams, I would drive it off a bridge and watch it sink into the bay. Yes, I would collect the insurance money and look for another one that is in better shape. Who am I kidding, I don’t know that I could do that, but hey....it sounded good.
Let me leave you with this thought; I now know why they consider cars woman. If we do not take care of them, spoil them and do what ever they ask, boom, we pay for it. LOL Okay, no offence ladies.

Why is it that I hate Wal-mart so much? We had to go today for the wonderful art of shopping. Ugh!!! I believe that all walks of life end up going there on Saturday. Okay, I may sound like I am too good for Wal-mart, but you find the weirdest people there.
I saw everything from Jonny Reb (rednecks), Goths, old people, etc. It amazes me that all of these people have one thing in common. Wal-mart. Why is it that all of these people flock to this establishment? I just don’t see the allure of this place.
Now, Target on the other hand is my store. That beautiful red dot, Starbucks, and the wonderful dog all bring me back again and again. It sounds really dumb, but I would rather shop there then go to the dreaded Wal-mart.
It could also be the fact that everyone and their brother goes to Wallyworld. The masses of people just make me want to run out screaming for my life. It isn’t my thing.

Okay, let me throw this out to you. Hypothetically, if you could go back in time and change anything, would you and what would it be? Yes, I am a sci-fi geek if you will and this question posses several intriguing concepts for me. I will admit to you that yes, I have pondered this idea on more then one occasion.
As for me, yes, I would do it!!! The only thing I worry about though is losing Brittany and Makenzie, although, if I have changed my history, would I remember them at all. There are a few things now that I am older that I wish I had the guts to have done when I was younger and certainly if I had I might not be where I am now.
Granted, I am in a far better place now then I was just 6 years ago. So, who knows? The one thing I would change for sure is I think I would have acted upon some of the things that I was too scared to do. I grew up with a very structured, almost to the point of being anal, life. Not that it is a bad thing to have structure in one’s life, but not to the point I had it. I lacked any ability of being spontaneous or was afraid to even have fun. I feared that if I did it would be a sign of weakness. I guess that was part of my family’s ways of doing things.
There is another area that I would like to change, but again it brings a fear to this day of what would have been or maybe could have been. There are things in life that you don’t want to ever lose and I choose one path so that I may never lose it. I will admit it brought much pain and anguish over the years for a long time!!! But, as Captain Kirk says in Star Trek V, “…I need my pain. It is what makes us who we are.” But that being said, I still wonder. Is this a bad thing? I have written stories about it and even had one published in college. My professor was so taken aback by it. Her comment was, “…someone so young as you to have so much hidden passion and pain, it is amazing.”
The sad thing is that I still think about it and why I never had the guts to do anything about it. Again, I had many chances and even had doors that I could have stuck my foot in to at least get that far. So, why do we choose not to go after things? It is amazing to me because I live with the pain of never trying but am happy in a way that I never did, but what if I had? There could be a different pain of a different failure. Hmmm.
Okay, I have gone on and on about this, so I will quit. But, I would be interested in any comments of if you would, would you and what would you change? Thanks.

Well, the count down is on. We have 6 days left of school. I am looking forward to this summer vacation. These past days have been very hectic for me. The kids are wild since they know it is the end of the year. Oh, well. We are going out for Brittany's birthday. I will write more later.


Ugh, sorry it took so long to get back to you. We went out to dinner for Brittany and come to find out poor Makenzie has an UTI. Her mother has been ignoring it for months. Kenz has been telling me about it for a while and I told her mom to make a doctor's appointment. They went, but not for that reason and never told the doctor. Kenz didn't say anything because her mom would get mad at her.

The poor kid is as red as a lobster and in agony!!!! I wish there were a way I could get that poor kid out of there. She does all the right things to stay under the radar. So I have no legal grounds to get her. Here in Florida the child has to be 12 in order to decide which parent they want to be with. The sad thing is she has the kids so brainwashed, I don't think Kenz would choose me if she could. So, thus again, I ask why are we here?

Hopefully, in these journals / blogs, I can find out. Somedays I feel as if I have nothing to contribute to this world. I am no President, no scientist, no doctor, or anyone that makes that big of a difference. So, what are the rest of us here for? LOL Okay, I do know the answer, but it still is an eye catcher and a good subject for conversation.

Okay. It has been one of those days. I had a student decide to try to choke me. To his surprise, I grabbed his hand and twisted it around to give him a chicken wing. LOL He cried for his mom when I was done with him. Now normally, teachers are not allowed to touch a student for any reason. So, to defend myself, I went and talked to the Assistant Principal about what happened. He laughed and said it sounds like self defense to me, so... I feel much better about the whole thing now. Here is the scary part, though, this isn't new from what I am told. What gives these kids the right to attack a teacher? If that ever happend when I was growing up man you would have been put through a wall. Oh, well....

Why Does It Seem To Always Happen? As long as there have been people on the earth, why does it always seem to happen that teens try parents to the breaking point? You would think that after all of the years and all of the people there would be an answer to this question. I told myself that I was going to be a bit different then my parents. Growing up, I thought I was under the watch of the Third Reich. But now I know that it was far from it. I have become my father in many ways. I thought that was going to be a bad thing, but I am proud of who I have become. Now what scares me is I do not know how to handle girls. I have three daughters and no clue as to how to deal with them. I grew up with a brother and male cousins, so I just do not understand all of the bickering, all of the pettiness, all of the jealousy. Somebody help me!!!! My wife makes fun of me because she wonders how I was blessed with all of this women as she puts it. No offense, but I sometimes feel it is a curse. I do not know how to talk to them about things. I was ready to give the big talk if I had boys, but now, I am prepared to sit out front with a shotgun and chewing tobacco. Ugh!!!!! What am I to do?

Okay, since a friend of mine has started to do this to keep in touch with others, I decided that maybe this would be good for me to get things off of my chest since I normally keep it in.
Where do I start? My brother and I are at war, my daughter and I are at war, and probably anyone else who reads this may be there to rally with my brother and daughter.
The problem with my brother is that he that he wants to keep his kids in a bubble and hopes that the real world will not ever scar them in anyway. Well, my daughter explained a situation to them and now my sister in law has jumped on me and since I ignored that my brother did. Well, I told him to get a leash on her because I am tired of anything going wrong, she calls and yells at me for it. So, he asked for me to apologize, and I refuse. This is why, my brother and sister in law have tried, convicted and set sentance on my daughter for something really foolish. They blamed her for teaching the boys about sex. Well, that wasn't what happened. My younger daughter when she gets tired, kind of goes back and forth on a pillow. My older daughter explained that she was "humping" the pillow, but it was inocent. Anyway, there was no more of an explaination then that. I yelled for using that word and stopped the younger one from doing it. So...
I am at war with my daughter because I am a dad who cares and sets rules. She is getting to be a pre-teen, so everything I do is wrong. Anyway, I will write more about that later. We are heading out, so I will get back to that.