Ghosts!!!

What a coincidence??? In my last entry I was speaking of ghosts and life after death, well, I had a ghost from my past pop into my life. Ouch, it was a pain that I really wasn’t ready for.

Okay, you are probably wondering what I am talking about. Well, I had a very close relationship with a person that I didn’t want to end. This person made me actually feel young, again. They could read my thoughts, see things about me that I didn’t want to admit about myself and made me feel like I was more then who I was.

I will let one of my skeletons out of my closet. I met this person when my ex and I were separated the first time before our divorce. Whether it was just because someone actually showed an interest in me and that they cared, or was it something else, I don’t know, but she made me feel alive again.

The sad thing is I was never ashamed of the relationship. In reality, I had hoped that there may have been more there then there was. Once my ex and I decided to try it again, I broke of any kind of relationship with this person. I regret the loss of something that might have been.

I guess there is still a wound from having to let her go. Maybe that is why it was a pain that I wasn’t planning on. Don’t worry, though, the only relationship I would offer would be as friends, nothing more. I am happy with my life, it was just very unexpected.